Mommy Thoughts

I have had a lot of emotions about being a Mommy lately. No, I am not regretting it :) ... well, except for that incident with the poopy diaper that got spread all over the crib (just kidding!). I think it all stemmed from this post I read last week. Silly, I know, but I read it, had it in the back of my mind all day, and then cried myself to sleep that night because I dread my "empty nest day" when it comes. But, after I got off my emotional, crying roller coaster, I did start to really put some thought into how I'm doing as a mommy. I'm more than 2 1/2 years into this mommy thing now. Not very long, but realizing how quickly 2 1/2 years have passed, long enough that I think it's time for some self-assessment. Am I letting the things that are most important take priority? Am I on the right track for teaching her all of the values and things that I think she needs to know in order to be a successful, happy, respectful, Christian adult? Am I equipping her with what she needs in order not just to survive in life but thrive in life? Am I teaching her to make the right decisions? Am I using my time with her wisely? I want to do better. I know I already have a great kid, but I don't want her to be great in spite of me and any of my screw ups as a mommy! Then I read this post today (same blog - I'm telling you, it's great!) and it summed up everything I've been thinking lately. I want to be more patient, more available, more understanding, more loving. This is not an admission that I haven't done any of these things up to this point but just the realization that my time with her is short, and I want to excel at these things for her. I want her to be the Camryn God intends for her to be one day, I want to be an integral part of making that happen, and I want her memories of me to be some of the sweetest memories she has.